I’m not a particularly anxious person but I’m also not as chilled out about life as I’d like to be. Doing anything new is a bit scary because there are so many unknowns, and that’s when your mind (the little bitch) starts to fill in the gaps with terrible possibilities.
If you’re in the same boat as me – launching into something you’ve never done before and feeling a little daunted, I hope you can find some solace in the fact that you’re not the only one.
Sometimes it’s good to be honest about your fears. Actually listing your worries out can help you feel less anxious, in the same way writing a to do list makes you feel more organised and in control. They’re out of the maelstrom of your mind and there in black and white, facing you, and once you’ve admitted them, you can accept them and move on.
Anyway, I’ll stop dispensing faux wisdom now and tell you what’s scaring me about the idea of becoming a yoga teacher:
1) My voice will be too quiet
I do have a naturally soft voice – what if people can’t hear me over the music and it’s irritating for them?
2) My voice won’t be relaxing enough
How am I supposed to lull people into a state of relaxation when I do not have a beautiful soothing Spanish accent?
3) I’ll injure someone
What if I don’t learn enough about physiology and someone ends up getting hurt in my class? I’d feel terrible and also might get a terrible reputation, or sued or something.
4) My body will emit embarrassing noises
The trouble with increasing the amount of time I spend doing yoga is that I also increase my chances of publicly embarrassing myself with some kind of uncontrollable bodily noise.
5) I won’t be able to explain clearly what to do
When I’m nervous I get a little jumbled. I can’t think straight or explain things succinctly. Explaining the postures clearly is so important in yoga because really the class shouldn’t have to even look at the teacher to know what they’re supposed to be doing.
6) People will think I’m a fraud
Does a 200 hour yoga course really qualify me to teach yoga? I know technically it qualifies me to be insured, but what do I know really? What if someone asks me a question I can’t answer? What if there’s someone with really specific needs who I don’t know how to help and I have to say ‘sorry I don’t know’ and undermine my credibility in front of everyone?
7) I won’t be able to remember the Sanskrit words for things
My memory isn’t great, and neither is my capacity for learning foreign words. If I make words up, will I get away with it?
8) I won’t have that special je ne sais quoi (had to google that) yoga teachers need to be really good
From my experience, some yoga teachers have it and some don’t. I don’t know what it is. Some kind of innate magic; just a sense that they’re really in tune with what’s going on in their body, and also a sense that they really genuinely care about us. I’m not one of life’s natural carers. I’m not very motherly or comforting. Will I learn to be? Or will I just be a bit too cold and dead inside to be a really good yoga teacher?
9) I’ll get physically tired and stop enjoying it
Yoga can be really great, sweaty exercise. What if it starts to wear me down physically and I want a day off but I can’t because I’ve got classes to teach?
10) Doing my own taxes
In the unlikely situation that I make enough money from yoga teaching to pay taxes, that means I’ve got to fill out forms and meet deadlines – two of my least favourite things in the world.
So there we go, 10 very real fears I have about becoming a yoga teacher. And that’s if I even make it through the training. Of course I have a bunch of fears related to the course itself. Will I be able to do it? Will I enjoy it? Will I suddenly realise it’s not for me? Will I pass the necessary tests? Will the teachers like me? Will the other people on the course like me? Will I like them? Will everybody be svelt and yogary looking? Ahhhhh.
Of course, I don’t dwell on these fears. They just swim around with all the others in a sort of sulphuric swamp at the back of my mind. My predominant emotion regarding yoga teacher training is excitement. I really feel in my gut that it’s something I’m going to enjoy trying. I think it will actually help me become more confident – especially with speaking in front of groups, and give me a greater sense of satisfaction in life. I want to finally do something that contributes positively to the world. Helping people get healthier, fitter and happier through yoga sounds like a pretty good contribution to me.
What are your fears right now? Let me know in the comments 🙂